Author: Christine Lewis.
As a recent college graduate who is in her first year of teaching, I stay pretty busy! It can be really challenging to keep up with a diet and exercise plan.
While in college it was even more challenging! It was frustrating because I always felt like I should be losing weight in order to “look perfect” or be “beautiful” and have had a hard time liking my body. I mean, I am short and curvy and I have to say, I have not had a good feeling about my thighs! That number on the scale has been my best friend or my worst enemy. Eating from a list of foods was either my savior or my slave master!
When I graduated, I moved back home so I could get on my feet financially. I decided I would learn about the hunger/fullness way of eating that my mom had been doing. I found out about Thin Within and started eating and living this way.
I have to say it has been a slow weight “release”, but it is amazing. I can truly eat whatever my body craves and I am still losing weight! I have released about 10 lbs. now. The best part is I have learned to accept my body the way it is, curves and all. By God’s grace and with His help, I am learning to love the body that He has given me.
A Victory Dance…
I really enjoyed the trip. I was able to really get to know the other girls in the bridal party. We had a great time. The best part was seeing how far I have come with eating 0 to 5. I was not just enjoying the company but the biggest excitement for me was how I was able to eat within my boundaries when I was surrounded by other girls who were not in that mindset.
Every time we ate out, all the other girls were complaining about how full they were and how they will have to go back on their diets again to be able to fit in their dresses for the wedding!
So, I’m over here doing little victory dance because I’m just eating what my body craves with in my boundaries. I didn’t have to worry about going on a diet when we got back. I didn’t have to feel guilty about eating “bad” food.
One night we decided to go get ice cream. The girls were all talking about how guilty they felt about eating ice cream. I just smiled inside, knowing I didn’t feel guilty. If I am at a 0, I can eat ice cream. I just had a bit of a victory dance right there in my heart! I just wanted to jump up and down with joy!
I was able to eat whatever I wanted on that trip without any guilt because I’m was not forcing more food into my stomach that doesn’t fit….
And I was thinking, it is kind of like my suitcase that I packed for this trip.
My suitcase is a certain size. I really wanted to pack this extra beautiful fuzzy sweater because it’s my favorite sweater. It’s nice and warm and it just makes me feel warm and cozy inside. BUT it just wouldn’t fit in my suitcase! Well you know what? The sweater will still be there when I come back! It’s just a sweater!
And you know what? It’s just FOOD. If I want to eat it and I don’t have “room”, I can always have it later. It will still be there.
Food doesn’t have power over me anymore. Poor body image doesn’t reign in my heart or mind.
God has freed me of all of that and I am truly thankful!
Christine Lewis is a first year music teacher at an intermediate school in the Birmingham, Alabama area. Music of all kinds is her passion but not as much as loving and praising the Lord. Her favorite things to do are crocheting, coloring, singing in worship, playing the cello and loving on her sweet dog, Lilly.