Written by BRIDGET MAY
From high school onward, my life was mostly about losing or gaining weight and hating myself and my body because I wasn’t thin. In the late 1970’s, after losing weight by restricting sugar and sweets, I started binge eating. It got really bad when I changed careers and moved away from friends and family.
One day, as I was again crying out to God, He said to me:
“Stop dieting, eat moderately, and exercise.”
But I, in my infinitely greater wisdom, said:
“Oh no, I can’t do that. I’m fat and I need to diet to lose weight.”
And thus began a decades-long cycle of binge eating and food restriction. I managed to lose weight in the late 1980’s and keep it off for 20 years through low fat dieting and severe (at times) food restriction.
Boy did I love being thin—it was an idol.
After my parents passed away, I lost the ability to restrict food and started gaining weight—the thing I feared the most.
A few years ago, I realized that diets were NOT the answer and that they did, in fact, make my binge eating worse.
Not long after that, I found Thin Within and truly believed that I’d found the answer.
I made no progress until I joined the first coaching group last November.
We went through Freedom from Emotional Eating by Barb Raveling. God gave me some important revelations, not the least of which was that it’s not about the food; it’s about my heart.
I went through a freedom phase where I had sweets in my house (NEVER did that before!) and actually baked cookies and cakes. And gained a couple of pounds! Ooops!
When we began the next coaching group January 2017, I had learned a lot, but still was not quite getting it. I knew the process, but was not walking in it.
We started our next group, and I asked Heidi if I could help her in any way (I’m retired). She asked me to transcribe some of the audios and videos for Think Thin Within. I agreed and spent days immersed in mind renewals, tools I could use, and ways to think differently.
It was life changing! I was finally able to eat 0-5 consistently, and whether or not I lost weight didn’t matter anymore. God gave me great peace and joy.
More importantly, for the first time in my more-than-four-decades walk with Christ, I can honestly say that being in community with like-minded, caring, encouraging, and loving ladies made all the difference. We talked, we laughed, we celebrated our victories and prayed about our failures.
Although we have never met face-to-face and might have to wait for Heaven to do that, I count the ladies in my coaching groups, especially Heidi and Christina, among my dearest friends.
Just like everyone who’s been in a coaching group, I know that I know that I know that I could not have done this without the group. We truly are stronger together!
Since last November (2016) I have exchanged truth for lies, grace and mercy for condemnation, and God’s love and acceptance for my self-hatred. I am so very grateful to have found Thin Within and the wonderful ladies who are part of it.
I am finally becoming obedient to the words that God spoke so long ago. I have stopped dieting and am eating moderately (0-5) most of the time, and I exercise because I enjoy it and not to lose or maintain weight.
P.S. I have released 10 pounds.
Bridget May lives in Baton Rouge with her three cats, two of which are older in cat years than she is people years. After loving being a college professor for more than 30 years, she is enjoying retirement.
From Heidi: If you are interested in being a part of our 10-week coaching group opportunity, email us at firstname.lastname@example.org. We start the week of September 18th and continue until the week of November 20th. We still have a couple of spots available at Tuesdays at 8am Pacific and Wednesdays at 4pm Pacific. Cost is $175 (normally $250) and includes the new curriculum, Fresh Wind, Fresh Desire, and access to the digital Think Thin Within course. ($50 value).
We use private Facebook groups for discussions during the week, and once a week have group coaching calls. As long as there are spots open, we will add people. 🙂 There are 6 or 7 in each group plus 2 coaches. An interactive, intensive 10 weeks will lead to HUGE changes! WOOT! (To see the current status of these groups, go to this page and scroll down to “Thin Within Coaching Groups Fall of 2017!!” and look for this photo of Heidi and Christina.)