His Weigh ~ Linda’s Testimony

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I was kidnapped at age seven.

I had just been released from the ICU to a general ward in our local hospital after having a ruptured appendix. I asked the nurse for an orange. Her response was (a) this is a not a restaurant and (b) anyone as fat as you should be pushing away from the table. I was a normal weight little girl and after three weeks on IV certainly hadn’t gained any weight.

At that point my mother turned away from me. Her view of me as fat and an embarrassment was set in stone. My body image was distorted for life. No matter what my weight I always saw myself through that lens. Food became the source of comfort I should have received from Mom.  Food and the eating or not eating also became a battleground. Mom would make cake and serve it to the family. If you ate it you were bad but if you didn’t eat it she was offended.

I gave in to my captors: the external authorities; the endless list of diets and diet books that promised freedom; promised the answer; promised that this would be the last diet I would ever have to do.

In 1985 I purchased the first edition of Thin Within. It was revolutionary thinking at that point. It gave hope but also seemed ‘too good to be true’. I tried the principles but it was still a matter of me ‘getting myself together’.  As the current Thin Within says it was a matter of trusting in ‘My Performance’ not in ‘His Provision’.

I was in the first online version of the Thin Within study in 2002. I have my journals of attempts with Thin Within in 2002, 2004, 2006 etc. etc. etc.  My book is annotated with my promises of ‘I surrender’.

In spite of the failures I kept coming back to Thin Within.  I knew it was truly God’s design and the legitimate door to freedom.

The breaking point and the breaking out into freedom came one month before my 65th birthday on June 12, 2010.  Over the next year I lost 70 lbs . I have kept most of that weight off. I have good health and an ability to enjoy life in ways not previously possible.

But the real freedom is in my soul and my spirit. I am free of the weight-loss captors. I no longer bow down to the ‘scale god’. I don’t even have a scale. In writing this article I realized that I haven’t read a diet book or looked at a weight-loss website in months. The magazine covers are no longer magnetic. I’m at peace with food, myself and God.   How did that happen? What was the breaking point that turned me in a new direction? Here is the ‘rest of the story’.

On June 12, 2010 at about 3pm MST I received one of those unthinkable phone calls. It was a cousin telling me that my only brother had been found deceased in his apartment. He was 61 years old. You can imagine my shock and grief. David was massively overweight and had been a chain smoker all his adult life.  The autopsy results were inconclusive but we suspect an aneurysm or stroke. There was no foul play.

My milestone 65th birthday was a few weeks later. I felt the Lord clearly leading me to  ‘choose life’. He was leading me to freedom.  But how?  A few weeks later I came upon a website inviting participation in a six week challenge called Restoring Honor.  It was a call to get our lives in order physically, emotionally, financially, relationally but most importantly spiritually. I took up the challenge as it pertained to my weight.

Why was it different this time? It was different because it was not about losing weight. It was about Lordship.  It wasn’t about my ability to ‘do the program’. It was about trusting Him to empower my choices moment by moment.   His Provision not my Performance.  As Lysa Terkeurst says in Made to Crave: ‘ I’m Not On A Diet, I’m On A Journey With Jesus’.

Here are some of my disciplines on the journey:

  • My primary boundary was 0-5.
  • I spent intensive time each day with the Lord ‘renewing my mind’.
  • In December of 2010 and again December of 2011 I went through the Thin Within book and recorded insights.
  • I kept my journey private. This was a love affair with Jesus not Linda’s success story.
  • The spiritual disciplines aided me in dealing with the emotional and comfort eating.

It took some time to learn what 0-5meant for me.

  • There were a few weeks of counting ‘points’ to figure out how much food it took to move from 0-5.
  • I used a 6” plate and 1 cup bowl
  • For awhile I followed simple NoS guidelines- No Snacks, No Seconds, No Sweets except sometimes on days that begin with S (Saturday, Sunday, Special Days like Thanksgiving)
  • Today I enjoy simple 0-5 eating- generally 3 times per day with a small snack if needed.  There are no restrictions or rules. I trust my body and walk in freedom .

His Promises To You: 

I have assigned your  portion and my cup,
Boundary lines  for you fall in pleasant places;
I have a delightful inheritance for you.
Psalm 16: 5-6

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord.
Plans to prosper you and not to harm you.
Plans to give you a hope and a future.
Jeremiah 29:11

What About You?

When were you kidnapped? Was there a defining event that trapped you in Diet Prison?

What would freedom look like?

Psalm 16 says that God’s boundaries fall in pleasant places. Which of God’s boundaries have you found pleasant? Financial boundaries? Sexual boundaries? Principles of forgiveness? Contentment?

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Seeing the goodness of His fences around our lives in other areas will give you the courage to embrace principles concerning food and eating.

Father,  I choose to believe that you are who you say you are and will do what you say you will do. I choose to surrender to the pleasant plan you have for me concerning my relationship with food. I choose freedom.

Linda FodeLinda lives in Calgary Alberta, Canada. She has been married to Allen for 45 years; has 3 children , 4 grandchildren & 2 grand puppies. She retired from full-time ministry a year ago.  She is a writer, blogger, motivational speaker & counsellor. 

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23 Responses to His Weigh ~ Linda’s Testimony

  1. Debbie November 18, 2013 at 7:28 am #

    Wow, GREAT testimony Linda! We are so much alike in a lot of ways. I am at the beginning of my journey…started at 289 last week, down to 281 as of this morning. Much of what you said spoke to me. The addiction set up early in life, getting free later in life, not telling anyone…..just you and Jesus, LOVE it, you have given this Granny hope to get this weight off once and for all. I am stealing the sweets on the S days, that is brilliant with Thanksgiving coming up. Love this group, love these testimonies and Love Heidi for finding new and wonderful ways to encourage us. What a Brilliant Savior we serve!!!!!

    • Chelsee November 18, 2013 at 7:44 am #

      Wow good job!!! And I agree this was a beautiful, encouraging testimony!

    • Christina November 18, 2013 at 9:40 am #

      Debbie, praise God for what He is doing! And what an awesome release in a week’s time! Continue to keep your eyes upon Him!

      • Debbie November 18, 2013 at 10:05 am #

        Christina, thank you so much. For some reason, it has been easy this time…….just letting go of all the “dieting mentality” has been such freedom. I was right on the verge of the Paleo bandwagon, but then got really depressed thinking I do this right before every Thanksgiving. Thinking I am going to diet my way through the holidays and end up making my whole family miserable. My husband was very grieved at one point and even cried b/c he saw the turmoil the enemy and my flesh were putting me through. He said to me, it is so simple, just forget about it. I love you at any size and I hate to see you so bogged down with this awful stronghold. This poor man has spent countless dollars on diet books, pills, programs. He is long suffering for sure, he just wants me to be at peace, and this is the only way that is going to happen. Jesus set us free 2,000 years ago, all we have to do is stand up, push the prison door open and walk out……….stand fast and renew the mind daily is what Heidi preaches nonstop with the group and I am so glad. That is the key!!!!!

        • Heidi Bylsma November 18, 2013 at 7:09 pm #

          Debbie…WOW! Thank you for sharing this!

    • Heidi Bylsma November 18, 2013 at 7:10 pm #

      WOW, Debbie. That is awesome!

  2. Traci Delson November 18, 2013 at 8:13 am #

    Love the part about not telling anyone… Just between me and Jesus. Thank you for sharing your testimony. It encourages me to get off the hamster wheel of dieting and buying special foods I cannot afford. I really don’t know that much about Thin Within. I have been receiving the monthly newsletters for a couple of years now, but I need to find out if there is a meeting in my area.

    • Heidi Bylsma November 18, 2013 at 7:10 pm #

      Hi, Traci. Or you can start a support group! 🙂 You can also join our online support group happening in January. 🙂

  3. Brenda November 18, 2013 at 8:16 am #

    What an inspiring story! Sometimes I catch myself thinking that it’s “too late, I’ve wasted so much time, why bother now?” because I’m in my late 50’s.
    It’s empowering to hear of someone who’s life changed for the better in her 60’s! I’ve also done the TW books several times–thank you for sharing your story of perseverance and victory.

    • lifepath45 November 18, 2013 at 12:03 pm #

      Brenda, it’s never too late. Hebrews says focus our eyes on Jesus who for the joy set before Him endured the Cross. The cross in our lives is the things we have options about. Moment by moment , day by day, bite by bite we have choice. Our struggle with weight deepens our love affair with Jesus and that is joyful.

      Enjoy your fifties. They are the most fruitful time of our lives.

      • Heidi Bylsma November 18, 2013 at 7:06 pm #

        What a great attitude, Linda! Thank you for this…and for your post today!

  4. Christina November 18, 2013 at 9:40 am #

    Linda, this is a powerful testimony of what the Lord has done in your life. My heart went out to you as I read that your mother was mad if you ate the cake, but then offended if you didn’t. I’m so thankful you have come to know the love of the Father. I, too, have kept journals that only Jesus sees. I write in mine almost every day. Thank you for sharing what it took to eat between your boundaries. Renewing our mind is such an important thing. I can tell you are a strong woman in the Lord and that God has given you a boldness and confidence! Praise God!

  5. Deb Wolf November 18, 2013 at 11:40 am #

    Linda, I can’t remember a time when I wasn’t kidnapped. I’ve been thin most of my adult life so most people assume I can eat anything I want. The truth – I’m overly careful about what goes in my mouth. The best thing we did is put our scale in the basement last January. I’m only weighing myself about once a month instead of everyday. The funny thing, my weight hasn’t changed and the number no longer controls my mood. Praise God. Congratulations on your success.

    • Heidi Bylsma November 18, 2013 at 7:08 pm #

      Hi, Deb. So glad to hear that you are experiencing some freedom from the tyranny of the scale!

  6. Jamie Moe November 18, 2013 at 6:08 pm #

    I’m So blessed and encouraged Linda. Thank you for sharing with us your victory! 🙂 This gives me great hope that I too will arrive at my God given weight. No more food rules and man made diets. Yea! : ) God bless you. Your words really touched my heart. I will be meditating on these verses you shared. Jeremiah 29:11 is one of my Key verses. I’m hoping and praying that when I have my 50th birthday next year in June I will have all my weight off. I still have a long way to go. 115 lbs to release. I covet your prayers. 🙂

    I have assigned your portion and my cup,
    Boundary lines for you fall in pleasant places;
    I have a delightful inheritance for you.
    Psalm 16: 5-6

    For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord.
    Plans to prosper you and not to harm you.
    Plans to give you a hope and a future.
    Jeremiah 29:11

    • Heidi Bylsma November 18, 2013 at 7:05 pm #

      Lord, I pray for Jamie. Thank you for her and her ministry in our midst. I pray that you will continue to infuse her with a confidence in your Word and your Spirit in her. Lord, please help her to experience the victory that she longs to. She longs to see an additional 115 pounds released from her frame, Lord. We look to you and your strength! Thank you, Lord. We believe in faith that you will continue to draw Jamie closer to you and that she will be transformed inside and out!

      • Jamie Moe November 18, 2013 at 7:47 pm #

        Thank you Heidi,
        I agree in Jesus Christ name amen. 🙂 God bless

  7. Joy Miller November 18, 2013 at 6:42 pm #

    This was a true blessing. I’ve never thought of it in a way of being kidnapped. So many things touched and encouraged me in this.
    Thank you for sharing what God has done in and through you.

    • Heidi Bylsma November 18, 2013 at 7:03 pm #

      Linda has such a way with words. I love the way she told her story.

  8. Mary Anne Endeman November 19, 2013 at 8:27 am #

    Awesome and encouraging testamony! Sounds like me as I have gone through the Thin Within book several times in the last 5 or 6 years—I am so thrilled that you shared with us!!

    • Heidi Bylsma November 24, 2013 at 4:59 am #

      Linda’s testimony is SUCH an encouragement, Mary Anne! I am glad you found it so! 🙂

  9. Karon Ruiz November 20, 2013 at 7:08 am #

    WOW Linda…I felt hopeful after reading your amazing story. Thank you for you honesty and willingness to share your childhood journey.

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