Written by Carletta Griffin
Okay, this is a Blog post that has been cultivating in me for a while. I have finally surrendered! Thank you to Christine G for the angel picture, which is such a powerful reminder to me about what my journey is all about.
I was initially exposed to Thin Within back in 2005. At the onset of just reading the book and applying the principles, to my best knowledge, I was led to a deeper walk with the Lord and the weight melted off.
I started to regain the weight due to life issues and I somehow abandoned ThinWithin, or I just forgot, I’m not sure. I started teeter tottering with another program with a similar focus and I experienced some success. However I felt like some aspects of legalism kept me in bondage and knew I needed to balance that with the pure message of grace.
Fast forward to when ThinWithin re-entered my life at the start of 2014. My heart was more open than ever. I knew it was purely my desperation, despair and sheer exhaustion of trying it my own way that led me back. Ultimately it was God, through the tugging of the Holy Spirit, that drew me back. My discouragement was His tool, I truly believe that.
In the beginning my journey seemed to be slow, as I looked for the scale to show me success, rather than making my intimacy with Christ my ultimate mission. As I learned to surrender to the process, little by little, I discovered what was eating me and began working with Holy Spirit, as He directed me to areas I needed healing. This has truly been the biggest gift to me during this journey –healing and working on what was eating me.
Encouraged by my new intimacy with the Father, I still desired more success as it related to how my clothes fit. Yet I determined I was not going to allow my emotions to rule over me this time and just stay the course. Then God began to deal with me more about fully surrendering. As I studied and prayed more for the areas I needed to surrender to manifest, God showed me I was doing too much in my own strength – excessive exercise and still trying to work the dieting and ThinWithin. I can boldly tell you that mixing does not work. We have to commit to doing it Gods way or forget it.
As I sought the wisdom of the Holy Spirit to help me operate more in the strength of the Spirit and not my own strength, here are some things that I learned:
Surrendering to God means making Him my first priority, and nothing else.
My time with Him trumps everything else. I have a family, so I now rise early to spend time with Him. It has been life changing.
Holy Spirit-the same Holy Spirit we received when we accepted Christ is-designed to dwell richly in us and He is our unseen partner in this journey. However, He is a gentleman ( my mom taught me that) and does not bogard His way into our lives. We have to intentionally seek and pray for His wisdom and ask Him to guide us toward victory in our ThinWithin and overall life journey.
Study to hear God’s voice and obey—this journey is about intimacy and this process of intimacy is designed to be an adventure, however we must seek God’s will for our lives. We must listen for His wisdom and OBEY!!
Abandon the diet mentality! I think herein lies the greatest area of struggle for so many others and me. I made a conscious decision, after some prayer and fasting, to release ALL dieting mentality. It was taking up too much headspace managing diet rules, pyramids and distracting me from my focus of Christ. No more! I have retired from dieting and I love it. If a food choice does not bother me or the Holy spirit has not shown me CLEARLY that it bothers me then I enjoy what I want within boundaries and life is so much more satisfying – Plain and simple! And FYI I love French fires in moderation! LOL!!
I could say so much about my process of surrender. Yet these are the keys that have unfolded on my journey. I have released six pounds within the last three weeks! Yippee! It is not the only determinant of my success, as I have so many others. Like writing this blog, leading a Facebook class next month through ThinWithin and a deeper level of intimacy with my heavenly Father being number one! The weight truly is the cherry on my hot fudge sundae of my new life in Christ.
What about you? Do you sometimes struggle trying to do this in your own strength? Can you relate to Carletta’s desire to live more fully surrendered to God? What are you willing to do about it?
Carletta E. Griffin, is a wife and mom to an 8 year old son. Professionally, she is an adjunct leadership/management professor with the University of Detroit and also owns two businesses. She enjoys serving in her local church and community. Carletta best describes herself as a woman who endeavors to love God with her whole heart.