The Big But

Written by Claire Urig

Guys, I can’t do this.

I mean it. I am unable to follow 0-5 when I eat. I have engaged in this holy struggle with my battle gear on, for a short time compared to many of you, but I just cannot do it. I can’t manage to wait until I’m truly hungry. I blaze right past a comfortable 5. I eat when I am knowingly not hungry in the slightest. Sometimes I think just because something tastes good I can eat, and eat, and eat….

But God.

Ephesians 2:1-7; “And you were dead in the trespasses and sins in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience— among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind.  BUT GOD, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved— and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus.”

There is no better or more beautiful BIG ‘but’ in the world. God steps in and the course changes. Everything switches. The light gets turned on. The darkness gets sent away. We were stopped from following the “passions of our flesh” and were “made alive together with Christ.”claire uturn

Wow. What a transformation.

Now here’s my “but”….

It feels like my journey with 0-5 eating has not been quite as clear-cut of a switch to obedience and “alive to Christ”-ness as I would have hoped. In fact, I find that most every single day is a struggle to be obedient in this area. As Paul says, I do the thing I don’t want to do. So. Darn. Often. And yet…

But God!

I know that but is a true one. When He comes He changes everything. Slowly I am realizing that this process isn’t so much about me needing to get it “more right,” but instead about pressing into the One who made everything “right” for me already.

The truth is, if my body never changed, if I never got free of this struggle with food until I see Jesus face to face, I will still have been made right with God through the blood of Christ. He would have been sufficient for me all of my days. So truly I have everything that I need. Any growth that comes in my life has to come from a consistent abiding in that truth: that I’ve already been set free in the one way that truly matters. Free to be in a relationship with God that would have been absolutely impossible for me were it not for the blood of Christ- “because of His great love with which he loved us…”

Growth comes from the context of relationship. So what I need more than being able to do this 0-5 thing consistently is a steady communion with Jesus. My focus can’t be the food. It can’t even be 0-5, as good and obedient of a way of eating that it is. My focus must be on Jesus. The goal is, as we are told in Scripture, an increasing growth into the likeness of our Savior.The goal is not 0-5, releasing weight, being my natural size.

The goal is Christ alone.

I was so lost, following the prince of darkness, wrapped up in myself, ignoring the goodness of the One who made me, faltering with every step, but God.claire but god

 

 

The growth will come as He sees fit, as I cling to Him for the very breath I breathe. If He is my everything, all of the other “vain things that charm me most…” will fade in the light of His grace, and I believe that food will be part of that. I, however, do not dictate the rules of when even the tiniest breakthroughs will come. That is His work.

Like a newborn in the arms of her mother, I don’t know what is coming next but I know I’m skin to skin with the only one who can give me what I need.

So, with all of the tenacity of faith that He gives me, I cling to my Lifeline, skin to skin with the “big but” that will always be enough.

So, how about you? Can you relate to Claire at all? Do you sometimes feel confused or discouraged along the way. Will you choose to trust in God alone and follow Him on this journey to freedom with your food and body? What is He saying to you?

claire pic for bioClaire lives in St. Louis, MO with her handsome husband Wade (seen in the picture), where they both attend Seminary and spend their lives reading books about Jesus and laughing about pretty much everything. Claire loves to paint, drink bubble tea, browse Etsy, and find big “T” Truth by learning more about God however she can. She is a certified Revelation Wellness Fitness Instructor.

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6 Responses to The Big But

  1. Lisa G. September 23, 2015 at 6:55 am #

    What a beautiful post! You are so right, Claire–we can fall into the trap of seeing only the very small goals, which can keep our eyes from the One True Goal of living for and with Jesus! Thank you for your honesty and for such a great (and very timely, for me!) reminder!!

  2. Jennifer September 24, 2015 at 6:52 am #

    Thank you so much for writing this Claire! You didn’t know it, but I believe God had you write this just for me. I am looking forward to digging into that scripture passage for myself later today.

  3. Jeanine September 24, 2015 at 11:53 am #

    Love the Big But!

  4. Becky Young September 24, 2015 at 7:37 pm #

    “Growth comes from the context of relationship. So what I need more than being able to do this 0-5 thing consistently is a steady communion with Jesus. My focus can’t be the food. It can’t even be 0-5, as good and obedient of a way of eating that it is. My focus must be on Jesus. The goal is, as we are told in Scripture, an increasing growth into the likeness of our Savior.The goal is not 0-5, releasing weight, being my natural size.

    The goal is Christ alone.”

    Truth! Truth! Truth! Looooove this. You hit the nail right on the head!

  5. Nicole September 28, 2015 at 3:36 pm #

    Thank you, Claire. Continue to let the Spirit speak through you to reach people like me at just the right time. 🙂

  6. Stephanie May 16, 2016 at 9:23 am #

    Claire,
    Thank you so much for sharing this. I don’t know where you are on your journey but I will be praying for you.
    I have only been doing Thin Within for two months. But have been trying to be obedient to God with my food and exercise for about three years. It has been a struggle sometimes. One thing that has really helped me are the images that are in one of the last chapters of Beth Moore’s book”Breaking Free”.The first image there is a person trapped in a prision of lies… Separated from God. That was me for about a decade! The next image the person is still in the prison but they are standing. They know the lies are lies but they are having trouble breaking free. That was me the past three years. The next image the prison door is unlocked and the person is tearing down the lies. That’s where I am now. The next image the person is out of the prison standing next to the cross the prison of their mind is now covered in truth.The final image the person’s thoughts are bowing to truth.. They are still standing with the cross. I drew these in my truth cards to renew my mind with each day. I feel closer and closer to God and the Truth each day.
    I am a fitness instructor and it’s hard to work in that industry and not believe some of the lies of our culture. To exercise 0-5. Is something that I really had to fight for. I would workout three hours a day sometimes and feel like it wasn’t enough! Lies!!!
    I am grateful to you for sharing your experience and wanted to encourage you to keep fighting the good fight! You’ll get there. Just keep surrendering to Him each day, each hour, each minute. One other quote from Beth Moore’s book that helped me, “Bind yourself to Christ. If you start to feel weary you’re probably doing too much of the work yourself. Fighting the enemy more than seeking God’s presence.”
    God bless your journey.

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