Written by Claire Urig
Guys, I can’t do this.
I mean it. I am unable to follow 0-5 when I eat. I have engaged in this holy struggle with my battle gear on, for a short time compared to many of you, but I just cannot do it. I can’t manage to wait until I’m truly hungry. I blaze right past a comfortable 5. I eat when I am knowingly not hungry in the slightest. Sometimes I think just because something tastes good I can eat, and eat, and eat….
Ephesians 2:1-7; “And you were dead in the trespasses and sins in which you once walked, following the course of this world, following the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that is now at work in the sons of disobedience— among whom we all once lived in the passions of our flesh, carrying out the desires of the body and the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, like the rest of mankind. BUT GOD, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, even when we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ—by grace you have been saved— and raised us up with him and seated us with him in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus, so that in the coming ages he might show the immeasurable riches of his grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus.”
There is no better or more beautiful BIG ‘but’ in the world. God steps in and the course changes. Everything switches. The light gets turned on. The darkness gets sent away. We were stopped from following the “passions of our flesh” and were “made alive together with Christ.”
Wow. What a transformation.
Now here’s my “but”….
It feels like my journey with 0-5 eating has not been quite as clear-cut of a switch to obedience and “alive to Christ”-ness as I would have hoped. In fact, I find that most every single day is a struggle to be obedient in this area. As Paul says, I do the thing I don’t want to do. So. Darn. Often. And yet…
I know that but is a true one. When He comes He changes everything. Slowly I am realizing that this process isn’t so much about me needing to get it “more right,” but instead about pressing into the One who made everything “right” for me already.
The truth is, if my body never changed, if I never got free of this struggle with food until I see Jesus face to face, I will still have been made right with God through the blood of Christ. He would have been sufficient for me all of my days. So truly I have everything that I need. Any growth that comes in my life has to come from a consistent abiding in that truth: that I’ve already been set free in the one way that truly matters. Free to be in a relationship with God that would have been absolutely impossible for me were it not for the blood of Christ- “because of His great love with which he loved us…”
Growth comes from the context of relationship. So what I need more than being able to do this 0-5 thing consistently is a steady communion with Jesus. My focus can’t be the food. It can’t even be 0-5, as good and obedient of a way of eating that it is. My focus must be on Jesus. The goal is, as we are told in Scripture, an increasing growth into the likeness of our Savior.The goal is not 0-5, releasing weight, being my natural size.
The goal is Christ alone.
The growth will come as He sees fit, as I cling to Him for the very breath I breathe. If He is my everything, all of the other “vain things that charm me most…” will fade in the light of His grace, and I believe that food will be part of that. I, however, do not dictate the rules of when even the tiniest breakthroughs will come. That is His work.
Like a newborn in the arms of her mother, I don’t know what is coming next but I know I’m skin to skin with the only one who can give me what I need.
So, with all of the tenacity of faith that He gives me, I cling to my Lifeline, skin to skin with the “big but” that will always be enough.
So, how about you? Can you relate to Claire at all? Do you sometimes feel confused or discouraged along the way. Will you choose to trust in God alone and follow Him on this journey to freedom with your food and body? What is He saying to you?
Claire lives in St. Louis, MO with her handsome husband Wade (seen in the picture), where they both attend Seminary and spend their lives reading books about Jesus and laughing about pretty much everything. Claire loves to paint, drink bubble tea, browse Etsy, and find big “T” Truth by learning more about God however she can. She is a certified Revelation Wellness Fitness Instructor.