By Vera Meuleman
I am a wife and mom and also work full time as a nurse. I’ve been married for 18 years to a wonderful, kind man who is an amazing father to our sons. We have 3 sons; twins age 13 and our oldest is 15, we are a close knit family, living in Cranbrook, British Columbia, Canada.
I came to Thin Within when looking online for a Christian based weight loss group several months ago. I had tried another program many years before with success, but knew it was not right for me for certain reasons. I found the Thin Within site and realized it was what I’d been looking for after reading some of the blogs. I’ve been in Karen Kincaid’s group since June and with her support, encouragement and prayers have experienced radical changes in my life and walk with God. For the past number of years I’ve been about 20-25lbs overweight and have continually gone up and down by 5-10lbs. For the past year and a half I’ve been working a job that required travel every 2 weeks. Combine that with keeping up with 3 boys’ extra-curricular activities and travel for sports and I became exhausted and ‘on the side of the road’ in my walk with God. My heart was crying out for God and to return to my first love, all the while I madly visited the gym and physically abused myself there – in the name of losing weight and getting fit. I began to feel convicted that I spent more time working out than I did with the Lord. This troubled me, but I kept on, until I seriously hurt my shoulder from lifting too much weight this spring. My back was against the wall as I literally had to face Jesus and confess I knew my ways were wrong as I was looking to my own strength to help me, not His. I didn’t know how to turn things around though, until I began Thin Within.
I give great praise to God that I can say that I am freer now in just a few short weeks than I’ve ever been in my life! I am also experiencing more peace than I’ve ever had about my body, and feel a deep gratitude to God for my body. One of the first things I felt I needed to do near the beginning of the study was to get rid of my scale, this was the first step to fully trusting God with my weight. It was scary at first, but now I cannot imagine ever stepping on it again. I do not need a piece of metal deciding what my day or my feelings towards myself will be, I chose to trust in God. I also threw out diet pills I had used off and on, and also have not been to the gym for a number of months and I do not feel any guilt whatsoever about this. I do run several times per week for pleasure and use it as a time to worship God though. I no longer look at thin females and wish I could look like them and I go to the lake and do not feel any self-consciousness! I am free in Christ, I am free from self-condemnation and finally free from the fear of others’ judgment of my body.
I have lost weight, I would guess 10lbs, but I am still wearing the same size. However, I’m coming to realize that the foundation of a heart sincerely dedicated to Christ, a heart devoted to praying frequently, and a passion for looking into God’s Holy Word to get to know Him more as well as find the answers to my questions and needs or the needs of others, is eternal. Please correct (or encourage) me if I’m wrong, but I’m believing that as I continue to worship God and apply his truths to my life, the weight release will simply be a by-product. I have plateaued right now it seems, and I know I need to step into the practical work further, and there will be trials so I appreciate your prayers!
Another major blessing that I’ve received as I have turned honestly to God for help is that some of the things I used as distractions before, to help me zone out when I was over-stressed or tired, such as i-phone games, are no longer a part of my life. This is embarrassing to admit, however, because life was so busy for me I desired an escape. Now that this crutch is gone, I am able to focus on the realities of my feelings and actually deal with them, and I am more present in life. I have also been able to take time to evaluate what some proper and helpful boundaries are to keep me right with God and to be a better wife and mom.
As I’ve walked through the study with Karen’s group, I felt led to offer prayer support for the next study. Despite my schedule, I know that as I seek to spend more time with God, He somehow gives me more time in my day. I would like to encourage others in the FB study as we carry on, I have found this way of connecting perfect for myself and family right now. Thank you Thin Within!!!
Vera Meuleman lives in Southeastern, B.C., Canada with her husband and 3 teenage sons, she works as a nurse and has a passion for serving the Elderly. She enjoys reading and has a deep love of learning, but her finest times are spent at home with her family and at her boys’ activities cheering them on.