Now that I’m on track, I’m realizing how much my relationship with food has changed. Food was able to stifle any feelings I had, and it did so quickly by numbing the pain. God doesn’t work that way, so that has taken some getting used to. It’s very different. I’m learning how to be patient. […]
I want to tell you a story, a true story I will call “My Jonah Story.” I must advise that this story is a bit dire and messy so a word of caution while reading if you will! So, if you’re still with me, here goes: I just finished reading the book of Jonah. […]
When I got up that morning, five years ago today, my life changed forever. As I was walking down the hallway, God said to me, “Go to the emergency room.” As soon as He said that, I immediately asked Sam to take me. Not knowing the outcome, I went, and God spared my life. I […]
I feel like I broke off a huge chunk of a taproot today! This bondage to food is like a huge tree with very long and thick taproots burrowing deep into the ground. The taproots become larger, longer, and thicker every time we eat when we aren’t hungry. The stronghold (tree and taproots) just get […]
“Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness.” I’ve really never been thin. When I was younger I had lost weight but didn’t know how to keep it off. So I ultimately gained […]
.I’ve never known that, when you do wrong, it breeds more wrong-doing. After all of the progress I’ve had, I overate early this morning and completely fell off the rails…
I had a pretty good day today. I’m just working to get my head back into the game. It seems like emotionally I’m a little off, like I got kicked in the gut and I’m trying to recover. I guess that comes with forgiving myself once again, which I have to say I haven’t […]
. I just read a scripture that hit me right between the eyes: Proverbs 22:3: “A prudent person foresees danger and takes precautions. The simpleton goes on blindly and suffers the consequence.” I’m sad to say I was the simpleton. I really didn’t care before; I lived too long with reckless abandon. I lost […]
Have you ever heard the saying, “If you find yourself in a hole, stop digging?” I woke up with this saying in my mind early one morning. I started to think, How was I digging in regards to food? I realized that I was sabotaging myself and digging a deeper hole that I […]
. I’ve come to realize that what I’ve been through – the pain I have been experiencing – is necessary for me. I don’t know why God chose this path for me, but I’m sure there is something He wants to bring out of me, and pain is the only way it’s coming out. […]