“The Hardest Easiest Thing I’ve Ever Done” ~ What kind of crazy oxymoron is this? Let me explain… It’s taken me 50 years to come to the end of myself. My food addiction started when I was 8 years old. I remember going on diets with Mom who was trying to help me shed pounds. […]
I had a very hard day. I was angry, and fearful, doubtful and disheartened because I’ve been working so hard for a breakthrough, and it doesn’t seem to be happening. I felt like I was in a pitch dark room… Where is the light switch?… Which way do I go to turn the light on […]
I looked back at when I was having panic attacks and had a very candid talk with myself today about them. God told me to stop watching all those horrible murder shows on the ID channel that I was watching regularly. I didn’t see anything wrong with them, but it was harmful to my spirit. […]
Now that I’m on track, I’m realizing how much my relationship with food has changed. Food was able to stifle any feelings I had, and it did so quickly by numbing the pain. God doesn’t work that way, so that has taken some getting used to. It’s very different. I’m learning how to be patient. […]
I want to tell you a story, a true story I will call “My Jonah Story.” I must advise that this story is a bit dire and messy so a word of caution while reading if you will! So, if you’re still with me, here goes: I just finished reading the book of Jonah. […]
When I got up that morning, five years ago today, my life changed forever. As I was walking down the hallway, God said to me, “Go to the emergency room.” As soon as He said that, I immediately asked Sam to take me. Not knowing the outcome, I went, and God spared my life. I […]
I feel like I broke off a huge chunk of a taproot today! This bondage to food is like a huge tree with very long and thick taproots burrowing deep into the ground. The taproots become larger, longer, and thicker every time we eat when we aren’t hungry. The stronghold (tree and taproots) just get […]
“Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness.” I’ve really never been thin. When I was younger I had lost weight but didn’t know how to keep it off. So I ultimately gained […]
.I’ve never known that, when you do wrong, it breeds more wrong-doing. After all of the progress I’ve had, I overate early this morning and completely fell off the rails…
I had a pretty good day today. I’m just working to get my head back into the game. It seems like emotionally I’m a little off, like I got kicked in the gut and I’m trying to recover. I guess that comes with forgiving myself once again, which I have to say I haven’t […]