Standing on the scale, I watched the digital numbers escalate while my weight was calculated. The final number made me cringe.
How can I exercise all week, control my appetite, and not lose an ounce?
Weeks earlier, I faced two choices: Lose weight or buy a bigger pair of pants. I elected to change my eating habits and exercise regularly. I was motivated as long as my pounds decreased. When I hit the plateau, self discipline took a nose dive.
That evening, I indulged my craving for a HUGE bowl of popcorn that was smothered with melted butter. Yep, ate the whole thing.
I don’t know how many calories I consumed, but I didn’t taste an ounce of guilt when I licked the bottom of the greasy bowl.
Contrary to all the weight loss miracle ads, losing weight (in a healthy way) is a slow, methodic process. And when it comes to building and toning muscles, forget instant gratification.
However, since I joined Thin Within and began eating healthier and exercising, my pants are less tight. I have more energy; more strength. My mental outlook improved. Isn’t that worth the process?
Or am I only focused on an end result—reaching that ideal number on my scale? If that’s true, my healthy regimen is a temporary fling like a summer romance instead of a necessary, life-long commitment.
The same holds true for spiritual growth.
Years ago, whenever I wanted to experience more of God’s presence and become a “better Christian,” I’d pray more and inundate myself with reading the Bible and Christian material.
I experienced spiritual growth spurts; glimpsed moments of euphoria. However, I couldn’t maintain that spiritual high or rate of growth. Finally, I realized…
There’s no such thing as microwave Christianity.
We renew our minds by the daily reading of God’s Word. Then we’re chiseled and changed by the Holy Spirit in the minuscule moments of each day.
This slow, sometimes painful, chiseling process is necessary to achieve God’s finished product: molding us into the likeness of Christ. (Romans 8:28,29)
My task is learning how to obey and cooperate when I’m confronted with God’s Word. For example…
- Do I listen to my heart’s desire to complain, scold, attack, and ridicule? Or make peace?
- Do I apply God’s Word throughout my week even though the lessons are painful?
- Do I sweat to do the right thing? Or cave in when something becomes too difficult?
- Do I rely on my own strength? Or lean on the Lord to make a way in the wilderness?
“Sanctification is an impartation, not an imitation.” (Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest).
If I want to strengthen my faith and exhibit the fruit of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control (Galatians 5:22), then I must abide in Christ.
NOT sporadically during a spiritual whim or when I want to lose weight, but habitually.
And when I mess up…eat too much, fail to read God’s Word, condemn myself…I’ll return to the One who loves me regardless of my weight. For His grace isn’t based on my performance!
Karen!!!! Thank you SO MUCH for this thoughtful post!!!! It is exactly what I needed to hear tonight – to help corral me back into the pasture. I need to be in, where “the boundaries fall for me in pleasant places.” Here’s a big hug!!!!
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Barb, thank you for sharing your thoughts!! Funny how we love our freedom. “Don’t fence me in.” However, the boundaries are there to help and protect us. But how awesome to know that God’s love has no boundaries!! Thanks for the hug!
After reading your post my heart feels satisfied. He gave me what I needed through your comfortable and honest sharing. It was as though I sat down with my best friend and received a good dose of love, wisdom and a firm, but at the same time, gentle push in the right direction! Thanks! Like your way of writing also! God Bless
Have we met? If not, I’d love to give you a huge hug. Your comment is one of the nicest things anyone ever told me!! God bless!
Very nice to hear, I am now my biggest yet, a 16. Last November I was a size 10. Dreaming of returning to a 10 someday…but I know that it takes waiting on my hunger signal and stopping at satisfied. Ate more a few days ago to please someone I love and all I ended up with was a hurting stomach…not something I want to do again. I have released some weight and gained back about 4-5# I love how TW is a journey and I am not under all the curses I was at WD. I still feel like God is with me. ☺
Carisa,
Are you wearing a smaller size pair of pants? You’re right about losing weight being a journey. I’ve reached my goal weight, but the journey continues as I learn to discipline myself and do what’s right by me. Keep us informed of your progress.