My precious wolfdog, Bo, had to be put down on Monday morning, my son’s 15th birthday. It has been a rough week. Bo wouldn’t stop bleeding through his nose and tons of tests were inconclusive. The vet could get it stopped for a while, but his red blood cell count wouldn’t rebound before he would bleed again. A transfusion appeared imminent…or, he would continue to bleed to death. A recommendation was made to “tie off” the carotid artery–an artery that is a primary supplier of blood to the brain. This clearly sounded beyond what God wanted us to do.
I had total peace that it was right to let Bo go, so went to the vet clinic and spent some time outside on their soft grass. I got to cuddle and scratch him and kiss his precious face, saying goodbye. Then, the vet added the medicine to Bo’s catheter to cause him to “sleep.” It was a peaceful goodbye, but oh, how I miss his fun and silly presence in our home.
Miss Crazy Daisy Pirahna Puppy from the Amazon now has an incredible burden of being our one and only canine…poor thing! Not having been socialized properly during her first 9 months (she was a rescue), she didn’t really bond with Bo. She loved playing with him–tormenting “Grandpa” actually…and I think she notices his absence, too. But she hadn’t bonded with him, I guess. She is doing just fine being the only canine.
The first three days I didn’t feel the heartache. I guess that isn’t surprising. I began to numb my pain, I guess…with food. I am surprised at how quickly I returned to old habits…Fortunately, I didn’t gain any weight back…and I am refocusing again.
What this did though was show me that I really need to seek God in dealing with issues that have been below the surface, I guess. There is healing yet ahead…and issues that still need to be resolved.
I know He is faithful.
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I am so sorry about your loss. (((HUG))) I was praying for you this morning and wondering how your pup was doing. I will continue to pray for you.
I am so sorry. ((hugs)) I know how much he meant to you. I will be delighted to meet him in heaven! (Yes, I believe God will save each and every one of our beloved pets!)
I am so sorry….praying for you during this time…God bless, Jenhttp://homeschoolblogger.com/AFJen88/
As a fellow dog lover, My daschund is named Ginger, I feel your pain! I am praying that you feel peace.
I am so incredibly sorry. I myself have 9 indoor cats and 4 dogs…my eldest dog is a black lab who is almost 14…I know her time is drawing near and it is heartbreaking. They become such entrusting friends and such an IMPORTANT part of our lives. May God comfort you and ease your sorrow.
Until recently, I did not understand the loss that people felt when an animal died. I never claimed to be an animal person of any kind. But in March when we had to make the decision to put our little dog to sleep, I was hurt and lost without him. I’m new to Thin Within, but I do know how easy it is to slip back into old habits and to leave God out of it. Very simply, if it matters to you, it matters to Him. Praying that you will find the peace and comfort our Father has for you.
Hi, everyone. Thanks so much for your kindness. I appreciate it very much. – Heidi
I am so sorry.. I will keep you in prayer.I hate that I haven’t been here to catch up.. life has been hard, and the food too quick to turn to.I will keep in touch.. and know that I’m praying!