The weather…she is a changing…I found out last winter quite by accident that some of my flesh machinery is WEATHER CHANGES!!!! I am a FAIR WEATHER person…and I despise wind…and rain…and we have a big old storm brewing. The first one of the fall…YIKES!!!!! (Need those emoticons, I so desperately miss!)
Anyhow, case in point…my dear daughter (Michaela, 13) wants to bake brownies. 6 months ago, I felt a freedom to have her do that any time…I could have a bit of brownie or not…no big deal having the pan in the house. In fact, when I finally got around to cleaning my kitchen one day I found a pan of partially eaten brownies (all the edges…my favorite part…were left) underneath another pan…totally forgotten! I felt so FREE in that moment!
Today, when she asked if she could bake brownies, I PANICKED! I said NO WAY! I feel stress about the upcoming women’s retreat welling up in me…and the weather is making me wiggy, too….and I would LOVE to plant my face into a fresh pan of brownies, chasing it with vanilla ice cream and a diet soda. YUP! That sounds wonderful to me right about now…So I told her not right now…
Nuts if she didn’t ask me later…I asked her why my no doesn’t mean no and she stated honestly “Because you didn’t SAY ‘no,’ but said ‘Not right now!'” Smart kid…ahem…
Well, I told her she could go ahead…now she is 15 feet behind me…making brownies…I am going to go take a nap…so I don’t have to smell them!!!!! (And beause I am tired.) Then, when I get up I will leave the house for a meeting I have…
OH LORD! STRENGTHEN ME! Why have I returned to this place where I live intimidated by a pan of brownies???? What is UP with that?????
