My “Dirty Little Secret” (part 2)

 

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Last week I shared with you my “dirty little secret”, about how I wanted to give up and was so discouraged because my body was not releasing weight.  I have been so frustrated because I *felt* like I have been eating between hunger and fullness! Why, oh why have I not been releasing weight but seem to be going in the wrong direction? I was even tempted to go back to a diet!

 

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The thought of going back to a diet is like asking me to go back to prison!

I just can’t do that!

 

 

So, As I usually do, I cried out to the Lord to show me what HE wants me to do with all of this. I have been praying and seeking HIM.

The next day, I wanted to share what God revealed to me with my good friend and accountability partner,  Deanna Burris (who is another author for this blog). We feel comfortable enough to be honest with each other and so I had already shared my frustrations with her.

And now, I want to share it with you:

Good Morning, Dear Friend.

I think God has whispered something to me today. I have been wondering (more than praying….) about what to do regarding my weight gain. I have been thinking about diet pills, trying “healthy eating”, reading another intuitive eating book ….just whatever.

Do I REALLY want to go back to the diet lies???

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Also, God has shown me that I’ve been lying to myself….

He  has shown me the TRUTH

This morning the Lord ever so gently showed me that although I think I’m eating 0-5, I am not eating mindfully. I am distracted most of the time and honestly, with letting go of some of my co-dependent behavior,  feeling full (probably an 8) brings me emotional comfort.

So lately I say I have been eating in my boundaries, but when examining and getting real with myself, I have not. And I think there probably have been many more times that I have had the blinders on about this.

 

BUT HERE’S THE GOOD NEWS!

Instead of guilt, I am feeling HOPE!

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There is hope because it’s NOT Thin Within that’s “not working” but I’ve not been honest with myself. Also, I am not beating myself up about my body or how I’ve been coping with things.

I am going g to prayerfully seek the Lord in this now that He’s shown me some things.

  • I admit to feeling a little rebellious in that I don’t want to stop eating over the counter or while watching TV. (The Lord gently showed me that I now rarely eat without doing these things). 
  • I’ve gone back to eating out of large bags of food instead of serving myself a small portion.

When I look back on the last year, I see that I only have rare days when I stay within these secondary boundaries, thinking I can just listen to my stomach. But what happens is THIS:

Because I’m distracted, I’m not really listening.

I’m just stopping when I feel like it and have eaten more than I really needed (I think a 6 or 7 has become my new 5). No condemnation here, just being honest with myself. 

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ACTION PLAN

  • I am going to give my body grace with its shape since I am in menopause.
  • I have gone thru loads of BIG stresses (and am doing some hard and deep work with in Screenshot_2016-05-26-10-36-50-1myself with the LORD…some huge layers of grave clothes God is working on and has been for a while…).  So there is GRACE there, too in regards to how my body has been reacting.
  • I am going to be on my face before the Lord for direction on what secondary boundaries HE wants for me so that my primary boundaries (0-5) can be kept on a regular basis.
  • I am opening my hands that have been grasping food for comfort etc. and grabbing on to JESUS, HIS PLAN for me and HIS FREEDOM.

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Most of all……I am surrendering to HIM.

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ALL TO JESUS,

I SURRENDER

I SURRENDER ALL.

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What about you? When you examine yourself, do you find there are things you need to surrender to the Lord?  Are you being honest with yourself? Are there boundaries you might have let “slip”.   If this is so, TAKE HEART and have HOPE for HE has given us the tools we need in Thin Within and Hunger Within. Let’s use these tools that have been given to us!

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4 Responses to My “Dirty Little Secret” (part 2)

  1. Deanna Burris May 27, 2016 at 7:13 am #

    Thank you for your honesty dear friend! It helps me and I know it’s going to help others!

  2. Dana July 4, 2016 at 8:17 pm #

    I am in the same stage of life and am literally freaking out at the weight gain, but I have not been obedient for quite awhile. Please know you are speaking to at least one person through your transparency. I appreciate your honesty.

    • Deanna Lewis July 5, 2016 at 8:56 am #

      Dana, I’m so glad that this spoke to you. God has us on this journey and I am so glad that God used my honesty to speak to you.

  3. Martha Lawson August 15, 2016 at 7:28 am #

    I have begun thin within and am over half way through but I have stalled out I am not releasing weight so I stopped reading the chapters I suppose because I do not feel like I can go onto the end and lose no weight. I am very frustrated but I also know that my frustration is exactly what satan uses against me. Thank you for the encouragement of your article.

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